So yeah, first week of school. I switched half my courses from the dumb math and the academic english to the enhanced english an biology.
So my schedule is Media Arts, Art, Enhanced English and Biology.

With no breaks in between. I half fifth lunch. D:

It's not so bad. It only means I can't hang out with my friends at lunch. But since fifth period is at the end of the day, I can sleep in on some days because my school switches period 1&5 every day! Hooray!

So yeah. That's my schedule. I'm excited for media arts, because we're starting to use the 3d animation program tomorrow. Polygons and shit, yo. Awesome. we also watched a bit of the original Tron, which I now have to watch. It's soooo awesomeeee like the first movie to majorly use CGI. It's ridiculous actually. I can't believe I haven't seen it before.

In art, we've been using some India Ink, which is now one of my most favorite things ever. EVER. I can actually use a paintbrush to make things look good with them. Then I was at 's house and he gave me his nib pen and a jar of India ink for free because he didn't want them! THANK YOU

So the next couple deviations I upload will probably be some of the stuff I've been doing with India Ink, either with a paintbrush or a nib pen.

English meh, bio meh. But in bio the second day I switched in to the class we had a mini-test assement and I think I aced it even though I hadn't been there.

So yeah. School.

MUSIC&BAND SHIT YO:

I had a band practice on Friday and we only have three people now, but I wrote a song and we ended up playing it instrumentally for like... 15 minutes. We just ended up jamming so intensely. We were really in sync with each other which I was really glad with. For example, the chorus is just a little bass riff I do for the melody where we would usually sing with the bass notes (but we didn't have a mic amp so we weren't singing that day) but it's supposed to stick out without the other instruments, and even without us communicating, we all just knew when the right time would be to play it. So like, everyone would be just playing crazy then the next bar everything goes quiet as the guitar changes to palmed chords and the drum just plays bass beats and I do the little riff by myself, then we would go back in to it crazy and the drums kept changing and ~Tempest-Fall played the best solo he has ever played in his life. Awesome. We just got in to such a good groove. Of course, I was playing the same bass line pretty much the whole time |D but the other two kept switching it up and we were just in such sync it was amazing.

But I was a bitch at the practice just besides that part where we jammed it pretty much sucked |D I take the blame, I was just really overtired, and my friend opened up some old wounds/anxieties so I kind of bitched out at her. I feel really bad about it because I'm usually never a bitch like that but I dunno... the past couple months have been really hard for me music-wise because the original band broke up, then she went with that band but she's in both, and the others formed sort of the band I'm in right now, and our keyboard just quit so there's three of us now and I've always felt really threatened by the other band because they got so much of a head start on us. Our guitarist left for 6 weeks to do a program in Europe so I did nothing for more than a month while the other band was getting paid gigs a a cafe downtown.
Plus my ex-band member said he thought our band would fall apart. That pissed me off.
Anyhow.
I've always had this anxiety that if our drummer had to choose one band she would choose the other band, because they're way more famous and more a of a music style she likes. And yeah... Those guys are the guys that left us so that's a huge ego-buster/self confidence killer, no?
So yeah. I finally got over those guys and accepted that they were gonna be there making me feel uneasy (even though our drummer claims she was going to stay in both and treated us like equals) and I was feeling better and convinced myself that I would just ignore them because hey, thy aren't going anywhere and neither am I. Also my dreams about them ignoring me together stopped. Only the drummer actually goes to our school so it's not like they would be hanging around OT anymore, right?

So then our drummer says she's so excited for battle of the bands and she's going to play with the other band there.

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fml.
I don't even think she can play in two bands because she'll probably be playing with ours.
But still.
Thanks, kid.
Can you not tell how bad of an idea that would be?
I've always felt so replaceable, like we were just the kid band she could play around with while she would actually always feel better/more famous/older or w.e with the other band. Like at the end of the day we were just some people to play around with in music,like it didn't have to be serious because she always had a back-up band that she would get famous with no matter what.
Replaceable.
And I've been stressing so much over it in the past two months, I've never felt so depressed in my life.
So when she brought that up again I said that if she was going to play with the other band we could always get a new drummer. Bitch move lol. She's pissed.
I guess she feels replaceable. Like me.

She's not really replaceable though because she's really good and my friend I guess so it's not like I would unless she left or became incredibly bitchy all the time and stuff but she's not really a bitch at all so I doubt that would happen. She's nice. I bitched at a nice person : O
She just unintentionally makes people feel uneasy with her ambivalence.

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But anyhow we need to get a new guitarist anyways. Well ideally we want a guitarist that can sing back-ups.
Right now the only person we've considered putting in the band is this gr 10 kid who I know plays bass. But I play bass. In the band. I also play guitar but I m wayyyy more comfortable on bass, and I perform better on bass. I'm good at writing songs on guitar but I'm not very good a performing on it. The only reason I suggested the younger guy anyways is because he's mightily handsome and I thought that maybe he'd help our drummer stay xD cuz she likes them handsome boys...

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But yeah. I don't think that'll work anymore because I thought of that plan like 2 months ago when I was still freaked the hell out. We don't even know how good he is. I really want another guitarist though, because I'm really not as comfortable on guitar. My bandmates say "oh well everyone is more comfortable on bass" but honestly I've been performing to huge audiences in the school band on bass and I've learned so much technique if we ever got another bassist (unless he was way better than me) I would probably bitch at him/her (we kind of want a guy though) like every five minutes trying to get him to play in a certain way.
It's depressing because my bandmates are pressuring me to play something I'm not as comfortable with even though I'm a master at bass. I mean, I've been playing guitar for years but I've only performed once at a recital. I can invent awesome stuff on guitar, but I mess up way more and I'm afraid I'd do that on stage. After last year's battle of the bands I lost almost all my stage fright, but still.
Plus I'm pretty sure I would constantly bitch at the new bassist if we got one.
When looking for bandmates, there are way more people who play guitar than bass, and are usually more quality players. A lot of bassists suck and can only play easy stuff and that's why no one ever cares about bass or think it's an easy instrument, but just listen to Death From Above!! They don't even need a guitarist in that band because the bassist does everything!

*sigh*

Anyhow.
I have feeling the other band will break up even more than our band because there was some drama in their band where apparently the only good singer/musician left the band without telling anyone at the same time they kicked him out. :\ that's kind of lulzy.
And if that's not enough, one of the main guys (the guy who started the original band but then left and then started that band so i.e. the guy who starts/organizes things) is going to UBC next year, probably for four years. In BC. Across the country. He was also the guy who said he thought our band would break up so IRONYYYYYYYYY but that's not until next year so w.e.

So yeah. I'm still optimistic, but I still want to play bass because I know I'm a really good bassist and I know that there are way better guitar player than me out there.

Trades: OPEN

I'm also doing some more 100 Themes stuff again.

Goodbye~

I have to do bio homework on bacteria! Yay!